All of us were born into sin. We have made mistakes ranging from small to large. For many of us, our sins have been a significant part of our life before we came to know and submit to Jesus Christ (Yeshua Messiah in Hebrew). Now, having turned from our sins and accepting Jesus as Lord and Savior over our lives we live and try to obey His commands. We should be striving to learn and obey all of His commands in the Bible. How often then do we feel ashamed of our past mistakes, not wanting to talk about them… hiding them as a relic of the past? I often find myself avoiding talking about the most significant sins in my life before Christ… but Paul demonstrates a different approach. There is a time and place to embrace sharing our prior sins so as to effectively share our personal testimony of repentance based on coming to know and submit fully to Jesus Christ!
Paul’s Defense before Agrippa
1Agrippa said to Paul, “You are permitted to speak for yourself.” Then Paul stretched out his hand and proceeded to make his defense:
2“In regard to all the things of which I am accused by the Jews, I consider myself fortunate, King Agrippa, that I am about to make my defense before you today; 3especially because you are an expert in all customs and questions among the Jews; therefore I beg you to listen to me patiently.
4“So then, all Jews know my manner of life from my youth up, which from the beginning was spent among my own nation and at Jerusalem; 5since they have known about me for a long time, if they are willing to testify, that I lived as a Pharisee according to the strictest sect of our religion. 6“And now I am standing trial for the hope of the promise made by God to our fathers; 7the promise to which our twelve tribes hope to attain, as they earnestly serve God night and day. And for this hope, O King, I am being accused by Jews. 8“Why is it considered incredible among you people if God does raise the dead?
9“So then, I thought to myself that I had to do many things hostile to the name of Jesus of Nazareth. 10“And this is just what I did in Jerusalem; not only did I lock up many of the saints in prisons, having received authority from the chief priests, but also when they were being put to death I cast my vote against them. 11“And as I punished them often in all the synagogues, I tried to force them to blaspheme; and being furiously enraged at them, I kept pursuing them even to foreign cities.
12“While so engaged as I was journeying to Damascus with the authority and commission of the chief priests, 13at midday, O King, I saw on the way a light from heaven, brighter than the sun, shining all around me and those who were journeying with me. 14“And when we had all fallen to the ground, I heard a voice saying to me in the Hebrew dialect, ‘Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me? It is hard for you to kick against the goads.’ 15“And I said, ‘Who are You, Lord?’ And the Lord said, ‘I am Jesus whom you are persecuting. 16‘But get up and stand on your feet; for this purpose I have appeared to you, to appoint you a minister and a witness not only to the things which you have seen, but also to the things in which I will appear to you; 17rescuing you from the Jewish people and from the Gentiles, to whom I am sending you, 18to open their eyes so that they may turn from darkness to light and from the dominion of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who have been sanctified by faith in Me.’
19“So, King Agrippa, I did not prove disobedient to the heavenly vision, 20but kept declaring both to those of Damascus first, and also at Jerusalem and then throughout all the region of Judea, and even to the Gentiles, that they should repent and turn to God, performing deeds appropriate to repentance. 21“For this reason some Jews seized me in the temple and tried to put me to death. 22“So, having obtained help from God, I stand to this day testifying both to small and great, stating nothing but what the Prophets and Moses said was going to take place; 23that the Christ was to suffer, and that by reason of His resurrection from the dead He would be the first to proclaim light both to the Jewish people and to the Gentiles.”
24While Paul was saying this in his defense, Festus said in a loud voice, “Paul, you are out of your mind! Your great learning is driving you mad.” 25But Paul said, “I am not out of my mind, most excellent Festus, but I utter words of sober truth. 26“For the king knows about these matters, and I speak to him also with confidence, since I am persuaded that none of these things escape his notice; for this has not been done in a corner. 27“King Agrippa, do you believe the Prophets? I know that you do.” 28Agrippa replied to Paul, “In a short time you will persuade me to become a Christian.” 29And Paul said, “I would wish to God, that whether in a short or long time, not only you, but also all who hear me this day, might become such as I am, except for these chains.”
30The king stood up and the governor and Bernice, and those who were sitting with them, 31and when they had gone aside, they began talking to one another, saying, “This man is not doing anything worthy of death or imprisonment.” 32And Agrippa said to Festus, “This man might have been set free if he had not appealed to Caesar.”
I find myself indeed encouraged to reconsider my resistance to share my past sins… even the biggest ones. How much more powerful a testimony to share in Christ that we once were lost and now are found… that there is a difference He has made in our lives and it is not incremental, but rather transformational! How easy is it for the lost to dismiss us if we present ourselves as never really having been lost ourselves. They will just conclude we do not understand them or we are different in some way. How much more powerful for the lost to know that we who are now in Christ were also at one point lost… and we still do not obey perfectly or have all the answers, but we serve the one who does. We can trust Him and demonstrate that trust by seeking to learn and then obey all of His commands rather than picking and choosing which we will obey and which we will not. We do this out of faith even when we don’t fully understand why He commands us to do something a certain way. Recognize, however, that yours is not an effective testimony if you still willingly disobey some of God’s commands and consider that acceptable… that is rebellion rather than submission.
Remain humble, asking God to reveal to you your areas of sin that still remain in your life. Continue striving to learn and then obey all of God’s commands, turning away from the way of the world. Demonstrate the life that God calls us to lead. Prayerfully consider how to model Paul’s example and effectively share your personal failures and sins as part of sharing your personal testimony of repentance and submission to Christ more effectively.
I invite you to pray with me:
Father please grant me courage and conviction to share even the ugly parts of my past if they can be used to bring glory to You and Your kingdom. Please grant Your people divine appointments where we can share what You have done in our lives and where You will prepare others to hear and listen to the truth. May our lives serve a purpose not to bring pride to our own name, but glory to Yours! Amen.
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